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Accustomed to illness ... and other jottings
I realize this afternoon that I've become accustomed to illness. What does this mean?
It means that I live from day to day within an altered framework of ability and activity ... that a 'new normal' has taken hold, and kept a hold, for a long time ... that every day requires me to prod the borders of what is possible, and to learn -- constantly -- what is possible in a moment.
What I goofily call 'brain farts' are glitches in cognition ... impairments in my brain's executive functions. I love to think; I'm a scholar and philosopher, a reader and writer, at heart. Lately, thoughts come and go ... and stay gone. Often, I smile at this going ... and I mourn, too. Are the impairments permanent? I don't know.
To live in a state of love with an animal (in my case, with two cats who share my home, and with other cats and dogs who share the homes of my human friends) is to live free in the relational moment from the overlays and complications of human thought ... free of the corrosive dross of judgment ... free in the limbic realm of pure sensation, touch, and warmth ... free in the spacious realm of simple, mammalian relation ...
From the film What Dreams May Come: "Hell is where people go when they can't forgive themselves." I need to forgive myself for being ill every day. I recognize both the merciful and predatory aspects of my own makeup ... and those of other people. In some people, mercy reigns; in others, predation. Those in whom predation reigns do not forgive my weakness; those who tend to mercy and compassion do not judge in a manner that requires forgiveness ... They forge understanding in their own minds ... and often, they are people who live in mindful awareness of their own fragility, and are merciful to some degree towards themselves ...
The ordinary becomes overwhelming. The mere becomes sheer. This experience is a consequence of trauma. Sartre wrote, "Hell is other people." Hell for me is the stimulation that can overwhelm my sensory and perceptual capacities when I am with other people. I need quietude like we all need air to breathe.
You know when someone says, "My blood is boiling"? That, in a word, is inflammation. Put another way, it's autoimmune disease.
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Yes, all things do eventually just become the "wallpaper" of our lives. Constantly there, but not really noticed anymore.
I don't know you so much.But I see that you are very intelligent,and you has big consciousness.What i make to write?The most problems are from our care about myself.That is,I am afraid in most cases;egoism,egocentrism and worst introversion. Of course most people are by this vain.Vanity and egoism is just here.That is the best solution extroversion.But sadly,must be no more mirror,except for hygiene.No more fashionable haircut.Natural hair,and some care about clothes only.I hope that you help :)
I've found some insight and new perspective on illness in general - and for me autoimmune too - in A Course in Miracles. I'd love to talk with you about it sometime
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